Mood Swings

As the darkness of the night Envelopes the cacophony of life Thoughts and feelings hidden In your mind are rife  Introspection and caution Begin to make you wary Ghosts that you laid to rest Begin telling their story Is happiness an illusion That is created in your mind Or to be found everywhere Just fear making you blind It's impermanence is scary And it's life so fleeting The feeling more precious With each encounter and meeting You hold tight grips Still slips like grains of sand Making the illusion of happiness Even more grand Unanswered questions Dense clouds of doubt Where do you go happiness Let me find your whereabouts

Do you see that woman? Hidden behind the dorky exterior Still shines with radiance and grace Do you see that woman? Hiding behind her silence Still has many stories to tell Do you see that woman? Hidden underneath her skin and clothes  Still fiery and full of spunk Do you see that woman? Hiding behind her shyness  Yet has a wicked sense of humour Do you see that woman? Hidden behind the tired eyes and smile And has stories of daily courageous battles  Do you see that woman? Hidden behind her screen With a heart as deep as the ocean Do you see that woman? Hidden behind her insecurities Still a champion for the meek Do you see that woman? That sits on her dark windows But dreams about the stars Do you see that woman? That looks back from the mirror  She's too much, too little,  Too guarded, too crazy  Too mad and too awesome  In a life of constant storm She is the ray of light. 

Trapped inside our lives We’re forced to introspect The meaning of life We lead so trapped and circumspect   The value of today Never seemed so vital before The worries of tomorrow So futile to explore   It’s a battle inside Of hope and despair Will humanity be awakened Or be broken beyond repair   Will love find us And friendships bring new meaning Or will social isolation Become a habit that needs weaning   The uncertainty of change Is teaching me how to cope   For where there is life There will always be hope      

Trapped in the hours of the clock I lived life in yesterday Healing scars from the past Allowing them to marr the future Experiences shaped perceptions Of how I viewed life Allowing it to colour The future I imagined The past year however Broke this spell Cast by shadows That hung over me I don't see the future still But not the past either Anxiousness hasn't become trepidation Nor expectations transformed to fear Something inside me Is beginning her new journey Born from this year of time Lived in today She doesn't have answers But to herself she's now kind As she starts a new journey Of leaving the clock behind

A step forward And two behind The words inside my head Were never so kind Doubts and fears are Self-preservation I guess The cacophony in my head Is sometimes a mess The walls in my head And a gilded heart Keeps hurt away Precious protection imparts I peep through the walls To see the world outside Sometimes it gets lonely In a world where only, I reside Introspection on days Gives courage and sight And like Dumbledore said Happiness can be found when you turn on the light

She says she lost it The ability to string beautiful words to meaning It drifted past her Like years of a bygone era Maybe she hid it First because time chased her And again and again Entangled in life’s trappings Maybe she chose to hide Her feelings from scrutiny Protecting her vulnerabilities From monstrous viciousness But its right there Peeking through the shadows Peeping through little corners of her heart Sometimes life inspires her Sometimes it’s a verse Sometimes its silly drawings Or the beauty of the universe She finds them one day Her words that were hiding Just came to her heart Without even finding