Scattered musings

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I chase phantoms
Fleeting moments of brightness
In the darkness of delusion
I run behind shadows
That are cast from the entity I am
I believe in magic
But forget it happens to those who believe
I seek serendipity
Still disregard the goings in my life
I try to find meaning
In the cacaphony of my mind
I seek reassurance
That will fulfill my dreams
I look for all of it outside
And still don't find the trust
I know the answers
And don't want to believe them
I hurt and ache
But find no cure
I need to find me
In these million broken pieces

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